I was born and raised in a small, suburban town in central New Jersey.
The one thing that has stayed consistent throughout my life, aside from my quaint little Jersey home, is my deep love for and draw towards music. Coming from a family of creatively talented individuals, I have always stayed in tune with my creative side, whether that was through painting, writing, or discovering something new. Music has constantly provided an outlet of creativity for me with the way I can identify with the sounds, messages, and meaning behind different songs. As a writer at heart, this too has allowed for me to explore ways to express myself in a creative manner.
As my life and values have developed, the value at the root of my identity is mental health and maintaining a healthy understanding of how to nurture it. Since coming to terms with my own experiences with anxiety and depression, I have taken a whole new outlook on life and who I am within it. Focusing on the depth of mentality in a way that not many people are capable of doing, I am looking to provide a voice to those who struggle to find their own. I want to put into words those feelings and thoughts that people have, but don’t have the vocabulary for. For many, music has served this purpose: emotional narratives that provoke the unidentifiable feelings within oneself. I am looking to bridge that emotional connection to the world and to oneself through words that reflect on sounds. If my words can resonate with just one person who didn’t know it was okay, acceptable, or normal to feel a certain way, I will have accomplished what I’ve set out to do all along.
I aim to share my love for sound with the world. I think music is incredibly special and powerful, especially to those that share the same identification with it as I do. Someone who is rarely outspoken, but finds her release through the emotions elicited from a sound. I think I’ve been granted the gift of the written word to share my restless mind with those willing to tune in.
Blubird is a reflection of these values - the power of sound, but the inability to vocalize. Instead, a platform to share, connect, and express in writing what music is for me and, hopefully, many others.
I am honestly, absolutely terrified to put this out for the world to see. I am an extremely vulnerable person, but I have never been so vulnerable with so many people. My mind is my safe haven, just as much as it is my biggest enemy. I never saw myself doing something like this, ever. I think younger me would be at a total shock to see myself now.
So this is really scary for me, but also really important. I’m not asking you to like it, you don’t have to understand it, and you don’t even have to read it if you so choose. But if you’re going to take one thing away from this, I want it to be known that this is my most raw, vulnerable expression of myself and the biggest project I have ever worked on. Please treat her kindly <3
